Happy Friday & Happy National No Pants Day!
I’m totally serious about that.
Anyway, I didn’t have a ton of stuff going on this week, but mentally, my oh my. There is some stuff I cannot wait to share with you.
But before we get there, I’m gonna throw back to last Saturday.
Unfortunately for this recap, it was a really boring day. I had a normal day at work, came home late (starving!), and had some frozen pineapple and fresh strawberries and watched a mini Netflix marathon of Gilmore Girls before I went to bed.
The weather was amazing on Sunday. As soon as I woke up, I headed out for an hour-long walk. It was warm and refreshing. I’m obsessing over it. I don’t know what it is about the nice weather, but it really helps my mental state.
I spent the majority of my day working across the table from my mom. I had to (am currently) working 8 days in a row so getting the energy and time for blogging can be tough. I wanted to make sure I was as prepared as possible.
I took some breaks in the evening to go outside to the coop to watch the chicks play. It’s really cute watching them run around outside. They’re still staying in the house for now so when they get to run around outside, it’s like a party. My brother will sit out there with them for hours. And I do mean hours. It’s so funny to watch.
Now, Monday is the day I really wanted to share. I went to sleep on Sunday night with a small anxiety trigger, but I didn’t really feel it too hard, which was strange for me. I’ve become accustomed to a consistent feeling of dread.
I went to sleep and woke up feeling alright even though the trigger was still taking place. I went to work on Monday feeling off, though. A few months ago I would have stayed in bed, cried, had a couple panic attacks and mentally and physically not been able to go on with my day. My anxiety would literally have become debilitating. But, this time… it didn’t.
I kept my mind as busy and as focused at work as I could, but when my mind did start to wander, and I could feel the anxiety rising up, I would stop, take deep breaths, and repeat a mantra to myself. I could not even tell you the number of times I repeated that mantra in my head throughout the day, but each time I did, it helped. It was my first time really using mantras as a coping method during my anxiety, and it was a really positive experience for me. In addition to repeating my mantras, I also prayed.
About 15 minutes after I said my prayer, the situation that was causing my initial anxiety was resolved, and I didn’t have to do a thing. I just stayed calm. I didn’t let my anxiety get the best of me, and I didn’t allow my emotions to go crazy and become completely irrational. I am so proud to share that I actually held it together. I made it through without a scene, and everything was okay.
After work, I came home and deep cleaned my car inside and out. It needed it so badly, and now that the weather was warm enough, it was finally time to just suck it up and get it over with! I actually feel better now that my car is completely clean now. Less clutter (whether physical or mental) is always a relief!
I headed into the house to shower, get ready, redo my nails (they were looking rough), and get ready for the night. Will had a late shift at work, and then we spent the rest of the night relaxing together.
Tuesday was my last day off of work before my 8 days started so I literally had a pajama day and spent my day working on my laptop at home. It was warm, breezy, productive, and relaxing. Mentally it was a really good day, and I am always so grateful when I can report that.
Wednesday just started off weird and kind of put me in an off mood. I had a phone call wake me up around 2:30 in the morning. I had to be up at 3 for work anyway, so I was pretty much up after that.
I had a protein shake on my way to work and then a banana and water on my break. My day at work was fine, but by the time I got home, I wasn’t feeling it. I managed an hour and a half of work on the computer before I was just done. I was exhausted, I had a headache, and my feet were aching. In addition to all that, I was feeling a bit anxious and was having a hard time shaking it. And unfortunately, it was one of those days where I just needed to handle it on my own. But I did, and I did a damn good job if I do say so myself.
I stopped working and took a bubble bath, watched the chicks outside with my brother for a bit and then went to bed early! I needed it.
That’ll be happening again tonight 🙂 Here’s why.
I worked 10-6 yesterday after an iffy night’s sleep. I hadn’t planned on doing anything special after work, but last minute, Will and I decided to go see the new Avenger movie because he’s been dying to see it. I’m not into any Marvel or DC movies. Superhero type stuff has just never been my thing, but I have to admit, the ones that Will has taken me to see have actually been really good.
The only storylines I knew about last night were Guardians of the Galaxy & Black Panther, and I loved both of those movies, too. Even though it’s not my thing, the movie was still really, really good. I loved it, but Will was pretty disappointed in the ending.
I really wished I had stopped to take more pictures, but one thing about me is that I do have a habit of getting very caught up in the moment, especially when I’m with Will. It’s a great habit for my mental health, but not so much for my blog!
Even though I had a really amazing night, I didn’t get home until after 11 and had to be at work at 4 this morning… hence the need for more sleep! Guess who’s sleeping in tomorrow!
Anyway, it ended up being a really decent week overall. The thoughts and processes I went through this week in order to make some mental changes and actually be able to handle multiple triggers without any meltdowns, were such a blessing. I’ve given some overall ideas of where my anxiety stems from and the things it focuses around, but I never go too in-depth.
Suffering from anxiety is such a personal thing and it can be really hard to divulge all that to others, but I do believe my story, and the resources and strategies I’ve been implementing really could help someone, so with that being said, I do plan to write a post with all of those things wrapped up in a little bow for you! It’ll be tough to share, but I do believe it’s necessary.
In addition to that, I plan to release an ebook on that particular topic, as well! I really can’t wait to share all of that knowledge with you guys and hopefully help someone like me!
Have a great weekend 🙂
Have you seen the new Avenger movie yet?
How was your week?
Do you have a mantra that you use or have you ever tried them before at all?