My plan is to post a recap of my weeks every Friday. I’ve struggled with keeping up with recaps on my previous blogs, but I’m going to make recaps a priority! The hardest part is remembering to take photos throughout my week! I captured a few this week so I’m going to do the best I can.
I’ve spent all morning working from home and catching up on chores. I have Sundays, Thursdays, and Fridays off of my normal job, giving me extra time to work on my writing, editing, and blogging from home. Yesterday was absolutely wasted due to a terrible headache that ended up on the verge of a migraine so today I’m cranking it out!
But, I’ll get into all that throughout my post.
Sunday was a busy day for me at home so I started out with a protein-packed breakfast. I know, beans are a really weird breakfast, but I haven’t gone shopping for much else yet! I added chili powder to my beans for extra flavor. It really does make them taste like chili!
I spent all day working on setting up the blog. I had homemade broccoli cheese soup for dinner and it was excellent. And I’m happy to report that Sunday was first day in the past year that I had absolutely no anxiety. I had a couple of anxious thoughts pop up, but they disappeared within seconds and believe it or not, I actually felt like a “normal” person for just one day. It was incredible.
Unfortunately, Monday actually brought me the worst anxiety attack I’ve ever experienced. The day was normal with absolutely no anxiety again. Then, before my usual Monday session with my therapist, I was asked to complete some homework. I had to write a letter to a specific person in my life who ultimately is the anchor to the majority of my anxiety problems.
Tuesday was an iffy day. I woke up with a fast heart rate, dizziness, and a stomach ache. I made it through work, but I just couldn’t shake this feeling for most of the morning. The feeling finally faded by the afternoon just in time for me to finish up at work and make it to my hair appointment.
I finally got my haircut after work for the first time since last January! I was in desperate need of a cut and it’s a great way to boost your mood. When you’re experiencing the lows of anxiety and depression try a haircut, a manicure or pedicure, or just getting your eyebrows done. Boosting your confidence can make a difference. It’s a small step, but a step is a step!
After I got home I let the dogs out and got them their dinner. I sat down for a while on video chat with Will so that he could see my new haircut. He loves how long my hair was, but he also loves the new cut! The dizziness, fast heart rate, and upset stomach returned a little while later.
Since I wasn’t feeling too hot I decided to relax in a quiet bubble bath. Usually I read in the bathtub, but I didn’t even bother. I just laid there in the heat and relaxed. This is one of my favorite activities for my anxiety. I just rest in the hot water (sometimes in the dark, as weird as that is), and just focus on my breathing. I recommend giving it a try! After that, I hopped right into bed to rest for the night.
Wednesday morning I was still feeling the same. I hadn’t been eating much since my stomach was so out of whack, but I knew I needed something to get me through work. I had no idea what to grab, but I knew I needed some protein so I went with a Power Bar and some watermelon. I didn’t finish either of them, but at least I got something in my system. I just spent some more time resting once I got home for the night.
I woke up feeling okay on Thursday so I got some work done around the house and worked on the blog for a while. I had a bit of a headache by late morning, but didn’t pay much attention to it. Early in the afternoon, I stopped by Will’s and spent a bit of time with him before he headed off to work. He has a Whole Foods right by his house so I planned to go there before heading home, but my headache ended up hitting full force.
I had plans with Will later on that night after he got off work so I was really hoping my headache would be gone by then. There was no way I was getting any work done feeling that way, so I laid down and took a nice long nap. Thankfully that really helped my head and by the time Will was out of work I was feeling better, but still really tired.
Once I was with Will I developed a little bit of anxiety. My heart was racing again and I was a little dizzy but I practiced my deep breathing and Will is always very supportive. He gave a me lots of hugs and kind words until the moment passed. That is something important to remember when you’re feeling anxious; the moment WILL pass. Just wait it out and everything will be okay.
The rest of our night was so relaxing! We spent a couple hours just cuddling and talking, and then we made a late night stop at 7/11 for a slurpee. That’s one of our favorite treats and we hadn’t grabbed one in a long time!
Will usually works most nights until 10 PM and makes it home by 11 while I am generally getting up for work between 5-6 AM. It can be tough to catch up when we’re on such opposite schedules so we’ve spent the majority of our relationship finding the most convenient times to chat on the days when we both work.
If you suffer from anxiety, which can lead to issues with co-dependence, especially in romantic relationships, then you understand why lack in communication can make me even more anxious. Because of this, I’ve asked Will to call when he gets home after work so we can talk then and besides, he stays up super late as it is. So I usually go to bed, wake up and chat with him when he calls for an hour or so, and then go back to bed. Will has worked very hard to understand my anxiety so he was always willing to make these calls knowing it relaxed me.
I’ve finally realized that the inconsistency in my sleep can be really hard on me and is not benefiting my anxiety. So just last night I brought this up to Will and suggested that when I’m ready for bed, I can give him a call at work to say goodnight, or if I’m in bed before he is able to answer his phone at work, I’ll send a text instead. Ending my night with a “goodnight” and an “I love you” is very important to me so I’d like to keep doing it, but hopefully this will be a healthier way to do so. Solid sleep is extremely important, especially if you suffer from mental health conditions. Will was really happy that I’d had this realization. He’s always pushing me to get enough rest and make sure I’m eating enough.
I got a ton done today except when this little bug was stealing my attention. My anxiety struck once (actually as I was writing this post), but it wasn’t severe. Some deep breathing, happy thoughts, and a quick 5 minute talk with Will before he headed to work really helped!
Questions For You
What is the weirdest thing you’ve ever eaten for breakfast?
How often do you take bubble baths?
What is your favorite brand of protein bar?